I have an app on my phone called TimeHop and each day it goes back in time and shows me what I posted on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram on this day last year, and the year before, and the year before that.
Well, today I opened TimeHop and had a good little chuckle.
Turns out my status for the past FOUR years was pretty much exactly the same. Some may say that’s boring. Me? I say it’s blessed.
This year I refrained from posting my “what a great year” message and instead posted a cute meme about my rockin New Year’s Eve outfit: my pajamas. 2014 was definitely a wonderful year and I can’t wait to see what 2015 has in store for me. But this was definitely one of the harder years of the past 5. I didn’t blog about it much because I’m not one to complain. I’m truly a glass-half-full kind of girl. But this year was tough on me. From my 6 rounds of strep throat to the broken tailbone…it was a long year physically. And, there’s something I’ve never shared, but was one of the most difficult things I’ve been through in a while. I had some very serious dental issues to take care of and it was brutal at times. For the past nine months I’ve hated my smile. Me, the girl who loves pictures, refused to have family pictures taken this year because of my teeth. I did not want this version of me documented for years to come. And, every time I posted a picture of myself on social media I’d scrutinize my teeth to make sure they looked ok. It has been very a painful, long and awkward journey to get where I am now. As of yesterday I’m done and my mouth is looking and feeling great!
As for resolutions, I don’t have any. Sure, there are things I want to do (blog more, write more, hone my photography skills, declutter the basement, exercise more…) but those are things I’d want to do whether or not a new year was on the horizon. They’re my journey, they’re a part of me and of who I am and who I want to be.
Last year I picked a word to define the year and I loved doing that. I truly thought about my word — RELAX — throughout the year and I’d check in with myself about how it was going. I’m happy to report that I truly did relax more than ever this year. I’ll never fully stop worrying, but this past year was a record low in terms of me stressing and beating myself up about tiny, inconsequential things that do not matter. I’ll write more on this later.
For the past few days I’ve been thinking about my word for 2015 and I was pretty set on patience until about a half hour ago when I getting ready to play around on PicMonkey and design a graphic with my word. I’m not the most patient person. Sometimes that’s a good thing because when I want something or need something, I will.not.stop until I get ‘er done. Sometimes, like when I’m with the kids and neither one of them is listening to me, having very little patience is not so great. But, ya know what, that’s something I know about myself. Every single year I vow to work on my patience. 2015 is new beginning and I want a word that describes the direction I see myself going in 2015. And then a word popped into my mind and I just knew it was the right one.
Like most women I’m a crazy multitasker. I have 7 or 8 windows open on my internet browser at any given moment and I toggle back and forth between them every few minutes. I’ll be in the middle of typing a blog post and if I’m not sure exactly what I want to say next, I’ll hop over to Facebook for a few minutes. Then I end up clicking a link, reading an article and next thing I know 20 minutes have passed and I didn’t finish that blog post. This happens throughout my whole day, too. I do a load of laundry, feed the cat, cook dinner and help Gia spell words all at the same time. Except that I don’t. Nothing gets my full attention and it takes me longer to accomplish one thing because I’m not truly focused on anything.
So this year, I”m going to focus. I’m going to focus my energy on one thing at a time and I’m going to focus on the things that matter to me: family, friends, my health, teaching and my writing.
Cheers, everyone. Here’s to focusing in 2015!
In the comments, tell me what your word is for 2015!